Post Unposted and Left Undone. Untied with grace.
It's been more than a year since I've sat down to this blog. I have no idea why I didn't publish this post. It's just been sitting for a year? In fact, I couldn't even remember what I had written about here until I reread it all, and still, some things have left me wondering why I can't remember what they mean today. I suppose what they say is true - "take whatever is worrying you - will it matter a year from now?". I decided not to edit it, just post it with a quick note and leave it as is, curiosity and all.
I've said for years that I wanted to take a weekend away and write letters to the most important people in my life. You know... "in case". I don't ever want my people to wonder or to be left with questions. I have since learned that simply saying what you need to, when you need to will always hold water. I hope more times than not, it helps a cup runneth over. I love you guys.
Write a "thank you" note to a special person in your life. Thank them for being in your life rather than for something they did.
Warning: this isn't going to be a short post. Get a coffee.
How do you write a thank you note to a special person? How does one choose? So many people shaped me into this glorious human. I have a million "thank you"s. I'm sure I couldn't write them all. But I decided to sit for a few moments, and capture some of the significant moments that touched my soul and share some gratitude.
Mom: Thank you for making me get off the floor, and for holding me up when I did.
Dad: Thank you for your reasonable moments, and for the only moment in my memory where you had to walk it off.
Gram: I can't pick one moment. Thank you for being someone my soul misses every single day.
Grandma G: Thank you for showing me how important affection is.
Grandpa G: For showing me what love looks like after 65 years of marriage. (and for juicy fruit in your pocket)
Grandpa M: For the bag of crab apples for the ride home - because I loved them. (There is a little bit of good in everyone - even when they don't even know it.)
My brother: Thanks for answering the phone.
My boy Mack: Thank you for showing me knights in shining armor exist. Forever Mine.
My Girlie Cass: Thank you for coming home. I can't...
Alyssa: Thank you for always wanting to share your day's stories with me.
Amy: Thank you for being kind - always.
Duane: For your smile and simple words like "hey buddy". You don't even know. I've waited my whole life for a brother like you.
Nadine: "I've dealt with it all, I will always understand". Thank God for you.
Tanya: My amica stretta...the other pea in my pod, the she to my nanigans. If ever there was a person on Earth that could show me stillness in roaring waterfalls - it was you.
Kerry - I wish it wasn't how it is. I miss you.
Kendra: For three a.m. possibilities and level D reading.
Corinne: For being the best birthday twin ever.
Marnie: No one needs to drink coffee alone. Thanks for filling my space.
Giselle and Amber: I knew I could love work one day...
And Kevin... this Universe doesn't hold words for the place you have in my life, and thank you seems a little under-dressed for the journey we're on.
(after thought... I suppose I didn't hit publish because I had to more to say, maybe more people to write about, not leave someone out, or leave someone feeling unnoticed... but even this, being left unsaid for a year now - is too long. There are more days ahead to write now. Someone untied my hands today. It's over.) (Natalie, that cryptic end was just for you.)
I've said for years that I wanted to take a weekend away and write letters to the most important people in my life. You know... "in case". I don't ever want my people to wonder or to be left with questions. I have since learned that simply saying what you need to, when you need to will always hold water. I hope more times than not, it helps a cup runneth over. I love you guys.
Write a "thank you" note to a special person in your life. Thank them for being in your life rather than for something they did.
Warning: this isn't going to be a short post. Get a coffee.
How do you write a thank you note to a special person? How does one choose? So many people shaped me into this glorious human. I have a million "thank you"s. I'm sure I couldn't write them all. But I decided to sit for a few moments, and capture some of the significant moments that touched my soul and share some gratitude.
Mom: Thank you for making me get off the floor, and for holding me up when I did.
Dad: Thank you for your reasonable moments, and for the only moment in my memory where you had to walk it off.
Gram: I can't pick one moment. Thank you for being someone my soul misses every single day.
Grandma G: Thank you for showing me how important affection is.
Grandpa G: For showing me what love looks like after 65 years of marriage. (and for juicy fruit in your pocket)
Grandpa M: For the bag of crab apples for the ride home - because I loved them. (There is a little bit of good in everyone - even when they don't even know it.)
My brother: Thanks for answering the phone.
My boy Mack: Thank you for showing me knights in shining armor exist. Forever Mine.
My Girlie Cass: Thank you for coming home. I can't...
Alyssa: Thank you for always wanting to share your day's stories with me.
Amy: Thank you for being kind - always.
Duane: For your smile and simple words like "hey buddy". You don't even know. I've waited my whole life for a brother like you.
Nadine: "I've dealt with it all, I will always understand". Thank God for you.
Tanya: My amica stretta...the other pea in my pod, the she to my nanigans. If ever there was a person on Earth that could show me stillness in roaring waterfalls - it was you.
Kerry - I wish it wasn't how it is. I miss you.
Kendra: For three a.m. possibilities and level D reading.
Corinne: For being the best birthday twin ever.
Marnie: No one needs to drink coffee alone. Thanks for filling my space.
Giselle and Amber: I knew I could love work one day...
And Kevin... this Universe doesn't hold words for the place you have in my life, and thank you seems a little under-dressed for the journey we're on.
(after thought... I suppose I didn't hit publish because I had to more to say, maybe more people to write about, not leave someone out, or leave someone feeling unnoticed... but even this, being left unsaid for a year now - is too long. There are more days ahead to write now. Someone untied my hands today. It's over.) (Natalie, that cryptic end was just for you.)
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